I walk into his office, hands shaking, voice cracking, "I'm turning in my notice."
Okay, so maybe that is a bit of a dramatic introduction, but it was an intense moment and a difficult decision. I gave my two weeks on Monday. For those that don't know, I work in the public accounting world as an auditor for a CPA firm. It is a very stressful and busy job that requires travel and long hours.
I am a very driven person with a lot of ambition so being successful in my career feels good, but honestly, from a very young age I knew my ultimate goal was to stay home with my kids. (My mom stayed home until I was in junior high and I really appreciated it.) That's why, when I graduated college and took this job, Jeff and I did not adjust to the income increase but rather paid off debt and saved so that when the time came, I would be able to stay home.
Since things haven't gone according to "our plans," I don't have kids yet and thus I don't really feel like I have a good reason to stay home. However, with all the health issues I've had, along with some personal issues, Jeff and I have decided it's time for me to take a break. My plans... well, we'll see. A full-time job is pretty much out of the question. For the time being, I'm hoping to fill my days serving my church and my husband, and lots of Kelsey (and baby H) time :)
This will be a huge change. With the way society places so much emphasis on money and career success, I feel torn about my decision, even though I know it will be what's best for my health, my marriage, and my spiritual growth. I fear change and feeling unimportant. But my job does not define me. Being a follower of Christ does. So here's to a fresh start!